WHEN I GOT HOME Kevin Costner told me I had to clean out my apartment, no ifs, ands, or buts. This was after I had dropped Silvia and her aunt off at the apartment downtown. My apartment was a mess. There were glasses and dishes everywhere. While I was moving a box of them toward the garage they fell on the ground and shattered. Some of these were heirloom glasses. Some of them even contained the souls of dead ancestors. When I looked into one of the frosted glasses I could see my great grandfather the physician with his Victorian Era mustache. This glass was salvageable and had only been slightly damaged. I picked up the shards and put them inside the glass. I was certain I could glue the shards back into place.
At night, I tried to get back to her, but the car just wouldn’t start. I left it in the garage and took my bike instead. Viljandi had changed a lot. It was hillier. It all looked like La Jolla, California. Yet it was unmistakeably Viljandi. The Centrum shopping center was there, it was just now on a hill and been significantly remodeled. All of the streets were in their right places, Tallinn Street was over here, and Posti Street was over there, but all of the buildings had changed. It was summer warm and there was a sticky humidity in the air. I rode my bike toward Centrum and then decided to take that route through the parking lot past Jysk that would eventually bring me back to Silvia’s. There were some Finnish tourists on the bike path.
I told the Finns to get out of the way.
I had on a pair of jeans and my old Hot Tuna t-shirt. Instinctively, I began to whistle their old song, “Keep on truckin’ mama, truck my blues away.” Off 1972’s Burgers. What had ever happened to that shirt? And would I ever see Jorma Kaukonen and Jack Casady play it again? And what was Silvia doing now? She was at her house in the woods down Posti Street. Probably making tea. I could almost see her blonde hair bundled up in a red handkerchief. I could almost see her blue eyes through the woods. I could almost hear the teapot whistle.